Nervousness and anxiety.

They never go their seperate ways, do they? Its like they cannot be seperated from each other. Well maybe perhaps one is the synonym of the other. What am I talking about. It doesn't make sense. I always don't make sense.

Why am I nervous? SPM's coming out soon. Not sure how I fared. Hope everything's alright. Its the one thing that determines my future. On it lies my parent's aspirations, my family's honour, my own glory, my siblings' hopes, my friends' expectation and well, my life. Such pressure. o_O

Brain's decaying. Can't think straight.

Oh, and I just received a letter from PLKN Department. They rejected my application to change camp. WTFDAMMIT*@&Y(*$&*!@!@!!!!!!!!!! My mum's not gonna take it well. Selangor. Bloody 300 miles away. o_O oh Lordie. Why did You put me there? Are You trying to tell me something? Either way, I'm gonna go with dignity. Only if my parents are cool with it.

Got this feeling of dread again. Or is it anxiety? Gah.